9/28 A good day

Diet wise really anyway, its been good. Lots of stress going on. Work drama, and our cat needs a leg amputation... That we don't really have the money for.... So anyway life has been getting in the way for too long. I wanted, no no I NEEDED to get it right today and for the most part, I really feel I did great today!

 Breakfast was: Yogurt and 1/2 cup Kashi cereal, coffee w/ cream
 Snack was: 2oz beef jerky, protein water, and 48oz plain water
 Lunch was: well that 2nd oz of jerky was eatin around lunch time, that was not so good really I had a cat to get, kids to pick up and a play to get to and eating was sort of put on the back burner
 I WORKED OUT TODAY! I did 30 min on level 4 easy intervals on the bike at the gym!
 we then had  a play and by the time it was over I was ready to eat a cow!

 We went out to dinner, even though we do not have the money to do so Mexican I felt I did well

 DInner was: taco salad w/ chicken fajita meat (ate about 3/4 did not eat the shell) 2 oz or so of chips and a cup or so of salsa, water big glass.

 Considering I normally would have had more, it was not bad, and according to my calories I am just under for the day. So I am going to take today as all things considered a good day.

Monday Monday!

Eat less. Move more. Eat less. Move more. I have been chanting this to myself all day long. It worked, partially.

 First I will post my plan was to work out with my buddy. I kinda knew she would not actually make it over to my house, and knowing that, I should have went ahead and gone to the gym after work, but... I didn't. She didn't come over, and then life got in the way (or near death, of my cat) and I never did get a workout in today. So that was the bad. It can't be all bad though. Tomorrow I will try to do better as far as 'moving more' goes.

 My eating was not spot on. But my calories were below my goal of 1500 Here is a breakdown of my meals:

 8am: Coffee w/ cream (2 cups) 1 egg on wheat toast w/ jam
 10am: Protein water (30 cal)
 11am: Damn breadstick at work those things get me!
 1pm: Shrimp scampi (home made leftovers small portion)
 4pm: Honey Crisp Apple O M G best apple EVER!!!!!
 6pm: Chicken enchiladas made w/ mostly white meat, and corn tortillas LF cheese and sour cream

 Oh and somewhere in there go ahead and throw a oreo cookie and 2 mini doughnuts. Yes not the greatest foods but its better than 12 oreos and 6 mini doughnuts right???

 I had a buttload of tea, and that protein water. only about 10 oz of actual plain water, and a diet coke. i was stressed with this headache and hubby brought me one and I caved and I drank it.

 Tomorrow I hope to have the sweets nixed from this journal and I hope to have some "movement" to talk about! Onward and upward one day at a time.

My pants are loose!

And not for a good reason. Not for a good reason at all.

 I had to buy a larger size. yes I am happy that they do not fit me well, they are loose, but I am upset to have to have bought a larger size at all. I swore I was not going to buy the LAST size larger I bought, and now I am up another size again. STOP THE MADNESS! It ends. NOW.

 I was looking up online all kinds of things. Drugs to take to help lose weight, diet plans, herbal things... Then I came across a site that gave me the 10 top ways to lose weight. Basically the ways were EAT LESS, MOVE MORE, DRINK WATER, DONT "diet", yeah. Stuff I already know how to do, and have known all along was what I need to do to lose weight. Like I said, I have done this before!!! I can do it again.

 So I have a plan in place. I am no longer over complicating things. I am no longer worrying about when I eat, making sure I get in 6 mini meals or extra this or less of that. healthy foods. Smaller portions. Moving more. Simple. Drink water. Simple. I can do this.

 My goal, not my ULTIMATE GOAL but my first goal is to be a size 10/12 by my birthday. That is about 4 months away and 2 dress sizes. I think its completely doable and I think if I work REALLY hard that I can exceed my goal, but if I remember the 10/12 size and I remember feeling pretty good there. Average. Not hot and sexy but not fat and frumpy either.

 I will use this blog to post my journal for the day and log my workouts. Just for myself to keep myself accountable and to be able to look back and see where I have come.

Going on week 2!

 In fact week 2 is half way over. Last week I did my three days M W F just as planned. This week, there was a little bump in the road. I had a dentist apt. late afternoon Monday that left me far from wanting to workout. So workout I did not.

 I have made up for it by going Tuesday though instead. Its good actually because on Tuesday they have a yoga class for kids, and my youngest wanted to go, and LOVED IT! So awesome that she is getting into this early so hopefully it can be a life long thing for her.

 So no real change on the weight part for me thus far. I have been eating pretty well, but weekends, my hard time are never good. This past weekend I made "puppy chow" and rice crispy treats and then ate more than my fair share of both...

 The change I have noticed though. I feel like I am just in a better mood. I am still tired, but I feel like I have more energy in the evenings. So that alone is a wonderful thing. Once I get my weekends straightened out a bit more, I should see some changes in my pants, and on the scale, I hope.

Week One

 If I do say so myself week one went very well. Each day I got in 32 or more oz of water. M-W I went to the gym Friday I did not, but I was SO busy at work, and then weed eated and such so I was still active. My only "Bad" food items were 3 oreos one night and then a DQ blizzard last night. I stayed under 1600 calories each day though even the days I did "cheat".

 I feel my motivation coming back. I snuck on the scale and noticed a loss. I will not make it for real until Monday when I weigh, my official weigh in day. Even so I feel like I can do this again, and that is great. I do get a bit discouraged at the gym w/ all those mirrors seeing myself and how fat I am and wondering why I did not do something BEFORE now.

 I cannot go back in time though, as we all know. So I have to live in the moment and in the moment I am chubby and in the moment I am FINALLY doing something about it. It feels good and I hope to be able to be motivating finally and do something about this.

 Cheers!

Going to do something about it.

 Finally. What does it take? going up my FOURTH SIZE now in jeans. The seam of the thigh splitting open? Feeling so tired and fat? Embarresed to walk around in public? Yeah it was a combo of those things. Finally is all I can really say.

 So why will I do this? Because today I joined a gym. With that joining I agreed to pay them money every month for 2 years. Yes, so, I will go because of this. If that is not enough, there is a pool there, and my kid can go swimming, which means they will be up.my.butt. to go at least every other day. Annoying kids are VERY good motivation. Also... Destiny is my workout buddy, for now. I know that will probably not last long, but for now, its nice.

 So my starting weight on this journey is 172.3 pounds. Yep. Nearly back at where I started so very long ago. A FAR cry from my last smallest weight of 131. My current goal as of now is 140. I want to weigh 140 pounds and I think I will look and feel SO much better because of it. so 32.2 pounds to lose.

 Today I did the bike 30 min (9.5 miles) then I did the treadmill 18 min (1 mile) and then I did the kids gym weight machines (lol?) I did 30 pound 10 reps of each. Its 5 different arm ones and then a leg and an ab one. All while I worked out my kids were playing in the pool. How cool is that? Pretty cool.

 I am feeling it already though, which I know is a good thing, but it also sucks! lol. I hate to be sore. My plan for now is to go M W F and workout for at least 30 min. I would like to work up to taking a class of some sort here soon. THey have boxing and I REALLY like boxing. I am thinking of that one for sure.

The Sky is Blue, the Grass is Green....

 And I am still fat. Still doing nothing about it. You would think I don't even care. I try to act like I don't care. Honestly though. I do.

 My thighs rub together,and that sucks in the warmer months, trust me. Also just yesterday I realized while bending down, getting back up being sore and somewhat out of breath... it is NOT because I am "getting old" I am having these problems because I am overweight! Now i can't control aging but I CAN control my weight if I just work at it.

 I could be happier healthier and look so much better if I would just put forth a bit of effort. My eating although not the best, is not horrible. Its really my activity level. Yes I have been more active lately now that its warm, but I REALLY need to get a workout schedual going. So this week, that is what I am focusing on.

 To get in the swing I have planned myself time for 2-3 small workouts each day. Morning- wii fit/boxing After work- Walk around trail/block Evening-Bike ride w/ kids or walk w/ dogs or trampoline

 So that is what I want to do this week. I might look into the activity center again for membership its cheap and the kids can go... we'll see. I am ready to do something though. I am sick of being embarrased because I feel fat.